I haven't been on here properly for a couple of weeks - just felt very, very sad and empty. I found a feather on Friday in front of my washer - it might have been off Nicola's bedding but I'm believing it was sent by you !! Dad was 80 at weekend, we all went down to Michaels, he enjoyed it and it was easier to get him away for it. We all clubbed together and bought him a lap-top - he cried Pete and asked what had he done to deserve it - Bless Him. We toasted you and got a bit tearful, but we knew you were there with us. I need to ask you a big favour - Chris is going having his operation on the 13th of March and although I know I have to be strong - I'm so worried about him. I need to ask you to please make sure he will be ok, look over him and keep him safe. We all miss you so very much, and talk about you all the time, as though you've just gone away for a while. We call you by your name, and laugh about the really crazy things you used to do. Our lives will never be the same Pete, but we will share everything with your spirit and memory and keep them alive forever. I feel bad because i've not spoken to the Andrea & Peter for a couple of weeks - but when you're feeling so negative then its really hard to be positive for anyone else. I know that sounds really selfish but I will 'get a grip' as you used to say and phone them both tommorrow. Forever In My Thoughts. My Love As Always XXXX